Was just able to weigh myself for the first time in a month and I’ve gained like 13 lbs!! I’m so disappointed in myself! I have no self control! No wonder no one wanted me in any picture at my friend’s wedding! Not even my parents have a picture of me, because to them I looked like a fucking whale even though I spent so much time picking out my outfit and getting ready. And now I have to lose more weight by this summer so I can get the breast reduction. I wish they could just fix my stomach too while they’re doing surgery on me. I’m so sick of trying to lose weight! It’s making me so miserable and it just doesn’t happen no matter how hard I try. I ordered weight loss pills, I’m that desperate that I’m trying something I know isn’t the best idea. But I need to be skinny or my family won’t be able to love me as much as they can and I can’t get my breast reduction unless I’m skinny.

sassyabrahamlincoln:

do you ever get your period and just think about your recent behavior like wow that explains a lot

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